Canvas #1

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Back in July, I had a coupon (I mean…of course I did) and bought the largest canvas that would fit into my car (3′ x 4′)…all because I found a $15 easel.

Started here:

Then flipped it over…which, it turns out, is becoming an ongoing concern for this canvas…

This thing feels HUGE…So. Much. Acreage.

I add layers…

Sometimes subtle…sometimes not…

“What we learned here is love tastes bitter when it’s gone.” – Rt

Yes…that is the last sighting of my ex’s self-portrait…

Buried…

There is some anger coming out, says I…

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“So go on and cry me a river
Don’t say this will haunt you forever
It never did, it never will.”

– Alter Bridge

“I gave you all my energy and I took away your pain
‘Cause human beings are destined to radiate or drain
What line do we stand upon, ’cause from here it looks the same
And only scars remain”

-Ed Sheeran

There is so much emotion I’m painting on here…

Turning it different directions keeps it from getting stale.

“You never loved me. You just loved how much I loved you.

– Mother!

Brought the bright back and started feeling the blood-rage, I think…

The glazing process involves some ugly phases before the luminous qualities start to show…

And here I left it while I spent my holidays in Las Vegas with some dear friends.

After I returned home on the 5th, I kept at it:

And the texture makes me swoon…so I decided to go in a completely different direction.

I feel like this is coming to some sort of finale pretty soon…

It’s winding down…I feel it…

AND…here it is on my wall. Replacing the “zombie girl” (me) that my ex painted.

This is too cool.

With the lights on:

I love it.

I’ve learned so much from making this. Not the least is discovering that Golden brand glazing liquid is slow drying while Liquitex brand glazing medium is not.

It is also quite likely that I will never record a(n even partly) step by step photo record of a canvas again.

Yes, I have started another canvas already. It will be for my very best friend of 35-ish years; my Anjo.

This blog has been out here on the interwebs for 6 years now.

I have posted on this blog 99 times before now, so this this my 100th post…about my first canvas.

I love it. I do love it.

Thank you.

Edit: This painting has a name.

“Shrike”

After the Hozier song, which fits Fucking Idiot to a T. In it, the shrike does everything I always wanted him to do, but in the end, he just wants to hang all of his shit on me (the thorn).

I love it even more with a title.

Red Journal

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Yes.

3 years-ish from blank, white book to this:

I started 6 journals at one time almost 3 years ago & the Red one is finished first.

Inside, front cover:

First page:

“So go on and cry me a river
Don’t say this will haunt you forever
It never did, it never will”
– Alter Bridge

Page 2:

“I’ve got a hole in me now
Yeah, I got a scar I can talk about.”
– Matchbox Twenty

Page 3:

“The youth can walk faster, but it is the elder that knows the road.”

– African proverb

4th page: I will never forget the Hot & Juicy Sauce.

Page 5:

“Write hard and clear about what hurts.”

– Earnest Hemmingway

Page 6:

“It takes a long time to become young.”

– Picasso

Page 7:

When I upgraded my paints, I was in awe of the colors and my first attempt at using glazing fluid

Page 8:

“But everyone you know, is trying to smooth it over
Everyone needs a floor they can fall through”
– P!nk

Page 9:

Just words I saw somewhere…

Page 10:

“I think I want to paint you
And then I want to hang you
In my bedroom over my head”

– Rob Thomas

Page 11:

“If you want more love, why don’t you say so.”

– John Mayer

12th page:

I’ve shown this page here before, and it still cracks me up…

Page 13:

This is all I have to say about that.

Page 14:

Some days, Pinterest is about as deep as I can handle…

Page 15:

This is a repeat as well, but I show every page when I finish a journal.

Page 16:

Ya’ll might note that there are no words on this spread.

It doesn’t need any. I love this page…

Page 17:

“Words, they’ll try to shake you, don’t let them break you or stop your world from turning. When words keep you from feeling good, use them as firewood, and let ’em burn.”

– Train

Page 18:

“You wreck me, Baby”

– Tom Petty

Page 19:

“The center of your heart is where life begins; the most beautiful place on earth.”

– Rumi

Page 20: About my friends!

21st page:

About that loser that tried to leave me in the mountains…

Ok…about his dog…

Page 22:

“What we learned here is love tastes bitter when it’s gone.

– Matchbox Twenty

Page 23:

“Arrange whatever pieces come your way.”

– Virginia Woolf

Page 24: More Pinterest

“Some words. The way they look at you.”

Page 25:

“Love with every stranger; the stranger the better.”

– Hozier

Page 26:

“He’s yelling about my tattoos. We all live with the scars we choose. They may hurt like hell but they all make us stronger.”

– Sugarland

Page 27:

“Let go of the judge within and be surrounded by positive, supportive people. Be gentle on yourself and others. Give. Never hold back.

– Nancy Davis Bilbro

Page 28:

“I know you’ll never love me but maybe you’ll stay for a while.”

– Henry Rollins

Inside, back cover:

The book cover is sealed down as it is so old it was crumbly.

Back cover:

This was fun!

Now there’s more time to work on the other 5 Art Journals:

Yellow

Orange

Green

Teal

Blue

….

NEXT!

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Prepping journal for 2017 prompts.

Loves me some gesso…

ETA: I do love gesso, even when it curls the page until it dries…

Journal 52 2018

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I did this. Yes, I finished it in January of 2019, but that’s better than when I finished Journal 52 2015 in 2017 innit…

Anywho…Journal 52 2018 is an EffyWild.com joint. She sends the prompts/art cards/magic every Friday and we can post what we make on the Facebook group.

It is happening again this year, and I can’t really recommend it enough.

With that, here’s my book. I didn’t seal the pages with gesso before I started, so there were limits on what I could add (wet media and such) but it was cool to work on it anyway.

Title page:

Week 1 – Heart

Week 2 – Calm

Week 3 – Integrate

Week 4 – Attend

Week 5 – Courage

Week 6 – Ponder

Week 7 – Moon

Week 8 – Play

Week 9 – Transform

Week 10 – Friendship

Week 11 – Dream

Week 12 – Navigate

Week 13 – Embodied

Week 14 – Storm

Week 15 – Clarity

Week 16 – Sensual

Week 17 – Pause

Week 18 – Deeper

Week 19 – Remember

Week 20 – Bliss

Week 21 – Frolic

Week 22 – Synthesis

Week 23 – Resilient

Week 24 – Empathy

Week 25 – Enter

Week 26 – Deep Peace

Week 27 – Light

Week 28 – Flow

Week 29 – Immersion

Week 30 – Bloom

Week 31 – Being

Week 32 – Pride

Week 33 – Wild

Weeks 34 & 35 – Imagine & Desire

Weeks 36 & 37 – Release & Patience

Week 38 – Intend

Week 39 – Puzzle

Week 40 – Adorn

Week 41 – Center

Week 42 – Reach

Week 43 – Listen

Week 44 – Memory (#2)

Week 45 – Uncertainty

Week 46 – Hope

Week 47 – Love

Week 48 – Melancholy

Week 49 – Universe

Week 50 – Manifest

Week 51 – Cleanse

Wareeek 52 – Beloved

As Effy put “Memory” as a prompt twice (weeks 19 & 44), she added a bonus prompt at the end: “Present”.

Because I have no more room in my book for that one, I’ll add it to my 2019 book.

Effy is going through the prompts again for 2019, but I think I’ll revisit the 2017 prompts since I skipped that year…

Vegas Travel Journal

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When I write in a journal, especially about my travels, I can record the most basic, banal detail and it will inspire total recall when I read it later…

I wrote in a travel journal for my entire Vegas trip.

I prepared this in advance, but filling it out every day makes it all real.

Happy Holidays!

#1 – Mark your intention…

This is the plan

(all plans subject to change)

12/25 …on xmas day…

12/26 busy days.

12/27 In between everything else, I make art.

12/28 Walk, walk, walk…

12/29 I love new pens!

12/30 Groceries are important.

12/31 We didn’t go anywhere at all on NYE. That was the plan and we stuck to it.

New Year’s Day was cold.

1/2 We all did our best impressions of houseplants, napping the day away…

1/3 Everybody basically exhausted themselves the day before we went home.

As I didn’t know I’d be in Vegas until the 4th, I had to add a few pages postcards to make room for the last days…

1/4 There are a few parts that are not visible to the public.

Yep.

But I made it home on Saturday the 5th.

Yay, me!

Truth

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…a quote from Danny Alexander.

Returned to Sender.

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For the first time, a postcard that I sent was returned to me.

The address sticker is mostly torn off, so I blame the machines.

I forget I make these once they are sent…

I will resend.